I’m devoting this Monday to meditation, reflection and devotion to submission. I hope to select topics that will get you thinking differently about some part of your life or submission and then just maybe grow a little bit further. If you have ideas for topics that might work for a Meditation Monday, please email me.
In the first few months of discovering submission and kinky sex I was insatiable. The sex I had couldn't happen near enough. But as the years have progressed, the sexual desire I once had has faded and it is probably because it's no longer new things. It's far from the mediocre but I don't feel horny all the time. Sure that could be a good thing, but being that one of my expectations as a sex slave is for me to crave sex, this has been a sticking point.
KnyghtMare understands, of course, even if he wishes it were different. Everyone has their ups and downs, other daily life things get pushed to the forefront and sex gets pushed back. Lots of things can make this change.
But today I'm focusing on how to ignite my sexual desire so that the less than sexy days are fewer and KnyghtMare's sexual satisfaction goes up. I am his sex slave, after all. I need to live it. Be all of it. For me, and many others, that means not ignoring it. Set your sexual desire and expressing that desire as a priority. Override those "have to's" and "this first" mentality. Sex is a pure expression of love and lust.
Consider for a moment what turns you on. Is it always actions from your partner? Or can sights, sounds and smells also flip your switch? I know I have sexual triggers within other senses. Bringing them out into the home can help me feel more sexual and prepare my body and mind for more sexual exchanges.
I am a sexual being. I will allow myself to feel sexy and to be turned on, even if something else is happening at the same time. Embracing the whole of myself is an experience in fulfillment; mine and his.
During meditation today, focus on your sexual energy. Let it course through you, light you on fire and excite you. Make note of every small sensation so that you can notice your sexual desire sooner and engage in fulfilling it. Sex is healthy. Sex expresses all sorts of emotions. Sex is healing (thank you Marvin Gaye). Don't ignore your desire. Let it blossom.
And then take action. Initiate sex. Flirt with your partner. Pounce when they are unaware. Share your passion with them. Submissive does not mean you can't express your immediate desires with your partner. Let your inner slut out to play.
Kindle the flame. Keep it burning. Feed the fire.