March 20, 2014.
Sir released me tonight. I’ve been released.
I admire and respect his reasoning. He has a lot going on and he can’t fulfill his responsibilities as my Dom. He recognizes this and made the decision with my best interests in mind. I didn’t ask for this; I wasn’t unhappy with our relationship. He did it because he felt it was best. And while it hurts so much, I can’t deny that he did the right thing. Fortunately, he promised that he’s not going anywhere and we can still maintain our friendship, which was always the most important thing to me. And there's no telling what the future holds. But for now, it is release
I’ve read a lot about what it’s like to be a submissive without a Dominant. I never really thought I’d find myself here, but here I am.
It’s too early for me to say I’m going to jump into the scene and find a new Dom. He said he’d help me find someone new if I wanted him to. Now is not the time for that line of thinking. I need time to reflect and heal. The other issue is that I don’t feel comfortable going to kinky events. I never have, so now is probably not the time to start. Perhaps, in time, I’ll feel differently. We’ll see.
I’ve talked in previous articles about how being a submissive has made my life better. It has. There’s no going back for me now. The Vanilla World is not for me anymore. And just because I’ve been released doesn’t mean I won’t continue to use what I’ve learned. He taught me so many things about myself. I don’t allow other people to control me anymore. I choose who I submit to (even in my professional life, I stand up for myself so much more now than I ever did before). I walk taller and straighter and I keep myself in control. I will continue my fitness goals and I will not start drinking soda just because I don’t have to follow his rules. He helped me reach these goals, so I will continue these good habits. For me, and for him. Submission has liberated me in so many ways. And now, to honor him and to honor my submissive self, I must continue on this path. I will look back with fondness on our time together, and I will look forward to what lies ahead, knowing I still have a great friend who will be with me along the way.
I’m writing this now for two reasons. I am now embarking on a new journey and I suspect there are many submissives out there on a similar path. We have each other and we can gain strength and knowledge together. I want to share this journey with you.
Most importantly, though, I want to thank Sir for everything he has done. You were my first Dominant. Thank you for everything you’ve done and continue to do for me. I’m so glad you’re in my life. I’ll always love you.
--pinksubgeek, formerly subtoJB