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Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore? Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?
I have sexual fantasies but I have to say that my submission is really fulfilled and that KnyghtMare and I have open lines of communication so that I can bring anything up to him that I may be interested in and we likely try it even for a short time.
Sometimes I have interesting thoughts of kinks or protocol that I might like to try and then we try it and it isn’t as cool as my dreams make it out. I know that I’m not the only one that does these things :)
The sexual fantasies are going to remain my own (and KnyghtMare’s). I’m not going to share them here.
Everything about submission as I was learning was scary or confusing - it’s just a way that you handle new things. So I’ve been through my share of confusing or scary moments. One of those that was really scary for me was KnyghtMare’s decision that I would not work outside the home and that all money was his to control. Giving up on having my own spending money was really hard, but KnyghtMare has been nice and loves to shower me with gifts.
I still get scared about not having a job if something happens to KnyghtMare but I’m sure I can get a job if I need one. Being reliant on someone else isn’t something I was used to, and was raised to take care of myself financially so switching to subservient in all things was scary of course.
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