The other day, I was going through folders in my inbox, just to see what I had in there, especially the one folder I have labeled “assorted stuff”, which by the way, is not the way to go if you’re wanting to stay organized in any fashion. It’s become my dump all for emails and whatnot I’m not sure where else to put beside creating a folder for that one item. I found something I hadn’t seen in a very, very long time. It was a homework assignment from a past dominant of mine. I’m a major literature geek and I got lucky enough at one point to have a dominant who was a Vietnam literature professor. I can’t tell you how much I loved being able to get my geek on and have someone who shared my love and passion for books. One of the books he brought me to read is “The Things They Carried” by Tim O’Brien and it’s a collection of short stories about an American platoon in Vietnam. He taught this book in his class and gave an assignment along with it: to write about five things, psychical, mental, emotionally, that the student carries with them. After I read the book, I was given this assignment as well. It was an interesting paper to write and one of those extremely thought-provoking ones as well. It was extremely interesting to re-read it considering I was in my early twenties when I wrote this and to see how the things I carried back then have changed from the things I carry now. It also got me thinking about the five things I carry for my submission, the things that I keep in my slave mindset or help with enhancing my submission.
1. My Tablet- The reason this particular item is important(other than the fact it holds all my ebooks!)is that it’s the way I stay in touch with Daddy when I’m out and about. It’s how I can let Him know where I’m at and what I’m doing at any given time during my day. It’s also wonderful for helping me keep track of my shopping lists, appointments, and anything else I may need to know.
2, My Collar-I am sure every submissive and slave are nodding their heads yes as they’re reading this. My collar really does help keep me centered. No matter where I am at or what’s going on, anytime I start feeling like things are just spiraling out of control, all I have to do is hold onto the heart-shaped lock, and everything is right in the world once again.
3. My Scars-I’ve had these for quite some time, even before Daddy was in the picture. I used to cut and on a fairly regular basis. You can see them on both arms and they’re not exactly something I’m proud of, but they are a part of me and tell part of my story. I know this is an odd thing to use to say that helps with my submission, but it helps to remind me the kind of slave I want to be for Daddy and that doesn’t include going back to the person I used to be. They remind me of where I have been, how far I have come, and how much I have to look forward to.
4. My Slave Mantra-Like with my collar, this helps me to find my focus. There are times where I find myself wanting to do things I’m not supposed to do and I struggle with not giving into temptation and that is when my mantra comes into play. I can not tell you how many odd looks I have gotten from people as I am walking up and down the aisle at the grocery store muttering this to myself. I also use my mantra to open my journal entries to Daddy because they do help to put me in the proper mindset when I’m sitting down to spill my heart out to Him.
5. My Stuffed Bambi-My slave name is bambi, so of course, that means I am obsessed with everything Bambi and that I have a stuffed one as well. I sleep with it every night and sometimes even when I’m out running errands, sometimes Bambi does come with me. Anytime there are any overnight trips away from home and or Daddy, bambi comes along to help keep me company and not feel so lonely. Even when I’m just watching TV, I will curl up with on the couch because it makes me feel better, makes me feel safe and secure. Plus, the Bambi is a huge part of my little side as well.
This is just a small list of the things I carry with me(whether physically, mentally, and emotionally)that help me with my submission and help me be the slave that I want to be. So, to turn this around, I would love to hear from everyone out there, what things do you carry that help you with your submission?